Demi Lovato doesn’t hold back anything in her new documentary Simply Complicated (below)

Here are some of the  things we learned after watching the YouTube Original doc

1. Demi Lovato is still in love with ex-boyfriend Wilmer Valderrama.
“I think my heart’s always with Wilmer. I think it was with Wilmer, I think that it is with Wilmer and I think it will be. I do have moments where it’s late at night and I’m lonely and I wonder if I made the right decision.” Lovato and Valderrama dated for six years before breaking up in June 2016.

2. She became addicted to drugs as a teenager
“My first time doing coke, I was 17 working on Disney Channel, and I was with a couple of friends and they introduced me to it. I was scared because my mom always told me that your heart could just burst if you do it. But I did it anyways and I loved it,” Lovato confessed. “I felt out of control with the coke the first time that I did it.”

3. Her birth father isn’t the man she refers to as “dad”
“My dad was an addict and an alcoholic and I guess I always searched for what he found in drugs and alcohol because it fulfilled him and he chose that over a family.”

4. She suffered from depression and suicidal thoughts at a young age
“Even though the dynamic in our family was always very loving and very open, on the other hand, we were also very closed off and secretive as well. I was depressed at a very, very young age. Fascinated with death. Wondering what it would be like to have a funeral. I never knew why I would think so darkly and it took me a long time to figure out what was actually going on.”
5. She hit her lowest point, “rock bottom” after punching one of her backup dancers in the face
She was angry that one of her backup dancers told on her for using Adderall so she physically assaulted her. “She had already boarded the plane. I just went up to her and it was like a blur. Everyone was freaking out. I just remember going and sitting down, texting my mom, ‘I’m sorry.’ And I slept the whole day. I just came to a breaking point.”

6. She was diagnosed with bipolar disorder when she was 18
“I was 18 when I first went into treatment. When I got diagnosed with biopolar disorder, it just made sense. When I was younger I didn’t know why I would stay up so late writing and playing music, and then I learned about episodes of mania and I realized that’s probably what it was. I was manic. In a way, I knew that it wasn’t my fault anymore. Something was actually off with me.”

7. She performed on American Idol while hung over

Demi talks about the last time she drank alcohol: “I would fake my drug tests with other people’s pee. It’s embarrassing to look back on the person that I was. The very last night that I drank, I was at a hotel and I invited two random people and basically just drank with them. I got really, really drunk until it was time to get on a flight. And I was so drunk that I threw up in the back of the car service on the way to the airport to perform on American Idol. I felt like that was a moment in my career where I didn’t care. I just knew that I needed to get high to get through what I was going through a that point.”

8. She will always love her ex-boyfriend Wilmer Valderrama
“I’ve never loved anybody like I’ve loved Wilmer. And like I still love Wilmer. When I met him and I laid eyes on him for the first time, I was in hair and makeup and I was like, ‘I love his man and I have to have him.’ But I was only 17 so he was like, ‘Get away from me.’ After I turned 18, we began dating and I think it was love at first sight. I don’t really believe in that, but I believe that it happened. We connected on a level that I’ve never connected with anybody before. He was just my rock, my everything.”

9. She still struggles with an eating disorder
“I would bake cookies for my family and I would eat all of them and nobody would have any to eat. That was my first memory of food being that medicine for me. Food is still the biggest challenge in my life and it controls — I don’t want to give it the power to say it controls my every thought, but it’s something that I’m constantly thinking about….Body image, what I’m going to eat next, what I wish I could be eating, what I wish I didn’t eat. It’s just constant. Like I get envious toward people that don’t struggle with an eating disorder just because I feel like my life would be so much easier.”

10. She dates men and women 
“I am on a dating app with both guys and girls. I am open to human connection, so whether that’s through a male or a female, that doesn’t matter to me”

Watch Demi Lovato: Simply Complicated documentary below

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